Okay, I have to admit that the DARTS site has a lot of cool shit. Expensive, but cool.

DARTS is Gackt's jewelry line XD

I admit that if I had the money I'd order this necklace. Or this.

Aw hell, I'd just buy everything.

The first necklace is around $237 USD. The second one is $316.

This is about $5,700. O.O

I mean, I think the cheapest thing on there jewelry wise is around $67, and they're earrings.

I know what I want for my birthday XD

 

I almost died when I saw this.

<3 Gackt

I'm pulling a Stay-Up-All-Night-So-I-Can-Sleep-Better-Tomorrow-Night thing. I've been up since 1 pm yesterday. Sometime this morning I'm going to get a shitload of energy drinks. Yeah, this isn't the best way to solve insomnia, but...well...I'm tired of sleeping til one in the afternoon.

Oh, and it's possible to mage tank Scholomance. I DID IT LAST NIGHT. Our group kept falling apart so MAGE TANK TO THE RESCUE!

My Grandma's brain tumor is back. THey want to do surgery but no one thinks its a good idea considering the fact that she's 81 and the last time they did anything they messed up and her whole right side is paralyzed. So now we're getting a second opinion. She'll probably end up having radiation, but even then...anything they do is kind of risky now. She's actually calmer now since she's been going for her B12 shots. I was actually able to have a semi normal conversation with her.

Yesterday was the three year anniversary of my Dad's death. It didn't hurt as much as it did the other years. ..... Does that make me a horrible person?

Wow, so I haven't posted anything in a loooong time.

I have a shot at a Job in a nursing home in Cheshire. A friend works there and she's one of the supervisors. It pays 11.00 an hour, and the hours are decent. If that doesn't work out my Aunt's going to try to get me a job as a receptionist at Ashler village. I didn;t call the Gateway people, partially because i'm just not motivated to go back to school anymore. I don't know. I don't want to sit around and do nothing though. I'll see how the job stuff goes.

I fell and sprained my ankle again. This is...the third time. Except this time i stepped in a pothole. I was almost to Jeff's car when I did it, which pisses me off because his car was RIGHT THERE. Anyway, he helped me to the car and I proceded to almost pass out from the pain. Went to the hospital, said it was a bad sprain. This is the worst one...so far. I say so far because eventually I'm going to do it again, because I'm a fucking klutz. I'm SUCH an optimist, right? Anyway, I crawled around the house for a few days since I can't use crutches (again, KLUTZ issues; I almost fell flat on my face numerous times). It really wasn't bad crawling; I even took a shower while kneeling, which was actually not that bad. Ankles better but its still swollen and it hurts a bit, but I can walk on it, which is good. I should have wore my brace more; I think i'm paying for it now.

The other part about me spraining my ankle? My Grandma actually TALKED to me. Like, as in, had a conversation with me that made SENSE. O.O I know, I'm shocked too. Although she was kind of annoying asking me if I wanted to use her extra cane or her walker every day. But now that i'm actually walking again she could care less. I'm lucky if I get a "hi" everyday. I don't...really care though, which is a little odd, but she's been either ignoring me or yelling at me for years. Now i think she's afraid of me. Why, I have no idea, probably because my mom gave her hell about her calling me fat and putting me down. that was years ago though, when i first went in the hospital. But still. Meh.

Besides being a klutz I'm spending my days relaxing and reading, and trying to learn Japanese, or playing WoW. I thinking I'm going to get my priest up to level 20 or so and save her for lowbie dungeons so I can level Zex more. I don't know. I think i'm gonna read for most of the day though. Need to learn Japanese because there aren't nearly enough Gaki subbed episodes out there. If i can at least get the jist of what they're saying, i'll be happy. Except my stupid book was supposed to come with an audio CD but it didn't; Kind of pissed about that. But still.

Oh well. I think i'm going to spend the rest of the day reading or something. Laters.

Yeah. So, I had this dream that Kyle killed homself. You know, Douchebag Kyle.

It was really really weird, and quite disturbing.

: /

I took the crazy test today...er...yesterday. Some of the questions were weird: Do you hear voices? Is someone out to get you? Do you see things that aren;t really there? But then there were the normal ones like Do you like being out with people, do you find that you sleep better during the day than at night, etc.

Should be pretty interesting to see how i scored.

The lady from Wagging Tails called on Monday; I didnt get the voicemail until today for some reason. Of course i got it after she had already left for the day so i need to call tomorrow...well...er...today. Hopefully i'll get the job.

I'm actually tired now.

Yay Me.

I have such a headache; I don't know if it's from not eating all day or from crying before. Probably a little of both. My hand is getting weak and shaking again. I left my brace at Grandma Lewis's. I agrued with Jeff all day, which was fun. I still don't see what was so wrong about some of the stuff, but oh well. We went to Walmart to get bread to feed the ducks at Hubbard Park, then went there to play tennis with Marco except the courts were closed but we didn't know that until we got there. I bought these new headphones the other day and i started trying to take them out of the package so i could listen to my ipod while i was up there, and that led to us arguing over a tennis racket, and the whole me being a bump on a log thing.

La De Da. Sorry if I assumed I wasn't gonna play and would rather listen to my ipod while i watch instead of just staring there and watching. We came back to my house, let Tub and Wally outside which was fun, then went to play tennis, where we got into another fight and left. Fun. We argued all the way to my house, argued at my house in the car since my asshole brother's inside using the computer and won't leave if we need him to. Which in turn led to me crying, which makes me feel worse.

Yeah, okay. I'm a crybaby. And you know what? You know how in the movies or in a group of friends there's always that one fat, ugly chick who's just THERE?

Yeah. That's me.

I told Jeff that's how I felt, he said i'm not and why do i feel that way, i said i look around at other people. He told me I pay attention to other people and listen to other people too much and it was all of that that made me feel bad and try to kill myself.

Well, I can't help it. It's not like anyone really dissagrees with me. And i really really need someone too, not because I tell them to say because i'm going crazy. I can't DO anything without thinking i look completely stupid. It feels like everyone's staring going "Oh, hey, look at that ugly fat chick trying to _____"

This is why I would rather sit in my room; read, draw, write, play WoW. Contrary to what everyone thinks I'm not ALWAYS playing WoW. It's just a game.

I take that wonderful hour and half personality test on Thursday, which we jokingly called "the crazy test". It's supposed to be 95% accurate or something. Doctor wants me to take it so he can see what direction we can go in during sessions and what stuff to work on. This is probably because I either don't really talk, or I don't know what to talk about. That and if something is bothering me I won't just come right out and say it. I can write it down. That's no problem. I just can't say it.

All in all, I'd rate my mood right now a 2; partially because I haven't hit an all time low today. Fun.

Stole these from a guildie's blog. Feel free to post 'em everywhere.


Theres like this guy and girl and they love eachother so much. Like as much as there are stars in the universe.

Ok yeah thats alot!

Guy: So honey, I noticed you didn't swallow last time...

Girl: Well yeah, Its because if two different peoples semens mix in your tummy it can cause a violent reaction.



Guy: Violent reaction like this? *Guy punches her in the face*.



THE END
Moral of the Story: Don't be a whore/manslut. Girl admitted she was a whore, guy punched her. She asked for it.



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Theres a group of friends driving in a car which is going home at around 2:30am due to bars closing. All of them are wasted beyond recognizing eachother clearly. The driver can hardly stay awake as he is driving on the local boulevard. Suddenly he hits a rather large object which stirs him to realize he hit a person. They all get out of the car to check if the person is alrite. The person sadly has passed away due to impact. They turn the individual over and realize that its an 13 year old child.

They enter the car and drive away =(

THE END

Moral of the story: Don't be out at 2:30 am if you're 13 damn years old. Youre either gonna get your ass kicked cause you say some stupid 13 year old stuff or some drunk guy is gonna tag you accidentaly.